And she's gone.

SO this is Cara Jeanne Eisenbach. And I'm pretty sure it's safe to say she is my bestest friend in the whole wide world. We've been best friends since 4th grade, back when she called me pee hair and I called her poop hair (we didn't like each other at first). We were actually ROYAL enemies. Once our 4th grade teacher Mrs. Wilhelms got us to sit down and talk out our differences we've been bff ever since. She's a strong mix between a sister and a best friend. We are brutally honest with each other (she likes to tell me when I'm orange and I like to tell her when her hair looks like crap). She is my traveler. We couldn't be any different. She doesn't want to settle down, if she could she would spend her money on traveling for the rest of her life. Me on the other hand, big dreams were getting married and raising a family. But no matter where we are, we always talk and are ALWAYS close.

And today, (her birthday) I am so very sad. :( She moved to Germany yesterday for at LEAST a year and won't be back in that year at all. She's going to be an Au pair, and REALLY I'm SO excited for her. She's wanted to do this for a while, but I'm just sad to have her leave me. I don't think I've ever gone this long without seeing her.

Besides Bobby, she is the bestest friend I've ever had. She's gone through everything with me. And I will miss her so very much. Love you Cara. :)

Husband.

THIS ONE IS ALL MINE.

Sorry ladies. :)

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I could not be any luckier. I possibly have the best husband ummm EVER. He puts up with so much, LET ME TELL YOU. I am a handful. I can be needy, I can be bossy, I can be VERY emotional, and I can be a BIG brat. He is so humble whenever I tell him things he should work on and I'm not always so willing to listen. He's great at calling me out when I'm gossiping and I never hear him speak negatively of people. He's always willing to be someones friend or give them a chance even if they won't give him one. That's always amazed me about him.

He tells me what I need to hear and he means it. Not a day goes by where he's not complimenting me or telling me how cute my outfit is, or how pretty I look.

He cooks for me... all the time. I LOVE how healthy it is because it is THAT much easier for me to be healthy. He loves to cook me food and try new things. I'm learning it's his way of showing me love.

He's the funniest person I know. I've never met anyone as RANDOM and SILLY as this boy. We are always playing and goofing around. He has made me laugh so hard I have almost peed my pants. I am so happy to be with someone who gets my humor and I get his--it's ALWAYS a big laughing fest in our house.

He can't stay mad at me for more than 2 minutes... and it's RARE when he is mad at me... AND when he is it's for good reason. I have to be a real brat for this to happen, but it's always an easy fix. He hates to fight he is SUCH a lover.

He is the kind of guy that sets his mind to something and he ACHIEVES it. It's one of his most impressive qualities. A couple years ago he got a gym membership and made the decision to get fit. You see those big muscley body builders? Ya that was his goal. He did a lot of research on dieting, and nutrition and has lost 100 pounds! I've never seen anyone with as much dedication as him. It's incredible. I love that we enjoy working out and being active together, I don't think it's something that we'll ever lose.

My family loves him and for this I love him more. I'm so glad that they see the amazing person that I see. They've been able to get to know him so well and I love how close they are with him.

He would do anything for me. And he does. He calms me down. I don't freak out as much as I used to, I'm not as emotional as I used to be and I love him for allllllllllllll of this and so much more! I am so grateful to have him as my partner.

Girls of 239!

I love being married. Married life is amazing. Living and waking up next to my best friend is the most wonderful thing EVER. I don't get sick of it... at least not yet. We've been having so much fun getting our house together and learning all the WONDERFUL things that you learn about your spouse when you are first married (like him leaving the toilet seat up. UGH.) But even though my life has had so many changes and life has been so crazy busy, I've still had time to think about all of the important people I've had in my life that have gotten me through it.

Today was one of those days where I was just missing Utah. Specifically I was missing my old roomates, Suz, Camille, and Robin. They were the first roomates I had when I moved away from home for the first time. Poor girls putting up with my naive 18 year old boy crazy self. But I cannot tell you how much these girls mean to me. I cry when I think about them because I miss them so much. We were like a family. We went out during the day, lived our life, and came home and sat and talked and cried together. I went through the HARDEST times in my life with these girls and I don't know if I will ever be able to thank them enough or have them understand how much they've done for me.

I came home one particular night, probably the worst night of my life and they just knew me better than anyone at that time and knew something was wrong. They made me sit down and talk to them, and all they did was listen and love me.

Sometimes I would come home at night and feel so lost and so confused and at such a low point in my life and suz would come in and cry with me. So many people in my life didn't understand me, or why I made the decisions I did, or just thought I was going nowhere and Suz always saw so much more in me. She was such an example and had such an amazingly strong testimony and it was hard to not feel Heavenly Fathers love when you were around her. She never judged me even though I was "rough around the edges" as she would say. Often times I've gone back to those low low days and think about how much she saved me. I needed someone to believe I was worth something and she always gave me that hope.

We always loved doing little things for each other. Whether it was just leaving a note for one another or decorating each others rooms, or throwing surprise parties. One year those girls threw me a surprise birthday party and I swear our whole ward was there. I knew maybe 10 of the people but our place was PACT and I loved every second of it. Another time Robin called our moms (around christmas time) and got our favorite recipes and made us a big dinner with all of our favorite food. We would have nights where we would sit in the dark in a circle and listen to "home" by Michael buble and talk about our future husbands.

These are the memories I will always cherish. I get homesick for them and the life we had in that little 239 apartment. I loved coming home and having my best friends there. Having Camille sitting on the couch with Eddie getting math help from him, Robin always on the phone with your family back home, and Suz going EVERY WHICH way (let me tell you she is one BUSY girl. And back then she didn't have a cell phone. IMAGINE).

I don't know if I would have gotten through those years without them. My home away from home. I love you girls with all of my heart.

Here's some old pics. thrrrooowwww back:

Robin, me, and Camille all squished (I have no idea how to spell that) in the bathroom at 4am. I think it was even easter maybe? Don't ask me why we were doing this but ohhh how we laughed.

Suuzzz! Where's suuzzz! This picture makes me pee my pants!

Michelle is in this picture with us!!!! I love Michelle (suz's sister). This was at Camilles wedding (Robin was either back home or on her mission) and that was the last time before I moved that we were together. Oh how I LOVE these girls.

And then this is the most recent pic of the 4 of us. I went back to Utah in March and we all got together and had dinner. We could have sat and talked there for hours. I loved every minute of it.

WEDDING!!!

Finally some wedding pictures up! These aren't the pros but here's a few (except for the one up top. Taken by my wonderful photographyer Ashleigh Thornock. More to come soon!)! I loved this day! By far the best day of my life and I wish I could go back and do it all over again!

Life is wonderful!

Hey Everyone! I know I'm terrible at updating this blog but I want to get better. I'm hoping I will once things start slowing down. Life has been crazy and busy and amazing lately! I am getting married in a month from yesterday! And I couldn't be more excited. Everything is starting to feel so real and now it's just countdown time. I feel so blessed for all the things that have happened and for this wonderful life I've been given.

Today so many thoughts are running through my head. Both Bobby and I got our temple recommends to receive our endowments and to be sealed. It's the most amazing feeling to know that you are worthy to enter into the Lords house. We have both come so far and we couldn't have done it without our Saviors love.

I had such a WONDERFUL bridal shower where so many of my friends and family were able to come out (including my sister Crystal and Grandma Billington). It was so great seeing everyone and getting so many great GIFTS! Lots and lots of cooking supplies. I've always acted weird about cooking, thinking I just can't do it. I'm not quite sure why I've been that way... but something has gotten into me and I have been a cooking machine lately! It must be this WIFE thing that is doing it. Anyway, today I busted out one of my best friends mothers recipe for Banana bread and did some baking! And let me tell you: it was goooood.

It's getting down to crunch time and we're both workin hard to look good on July 18th! Well... we've been working hard longer than we've been engaged, but weddings are a great insentive let me tell you! Bobby has lost around 65 pounds and I've lost 41. It's so nice to feel good about yourself and it makes it a little bit easier to worry less and enjoy the people and things around you. 41 down, 20 more to go!

Even though things have been crazy and busy, I really do feel like we've been able to just enjoy this time and not stress out too much. Life is just too short. Sure the party is fun, but the marriage is what I am most excited for. I cannot wait to spend all of eternity with the person who knows me and loves me most, my best friend.

Engagement Photos.

WOOT. I love them I love them I love them. Here's the engagement photo's done by the amazing Ksenia Everton. Hope you like them as much as I do!!!

83 days!!!! The Countdown is on!

This blog is just going to be a lot of boring text with nooooooo pictures. I have no idea where my camera disappeared to... it's gotta be around here somewhere!

Everything has been wonderful lately. Crazy, but wonderful. LET ME TELL YOU.. I've never really understood why people say weddings are so hectic. But now I get it. Doesn't matter how simpleish you try and make it, there's still a lot to do. As of right now most of the big things are either done or planned. It's now just a matter of doing all of the little things. I've left some of the crafty things up to my mom... with an opinion here and there given by me. She's been great with helping me plan this wedding. She's so creative and everytime I come over to the house she's got a new idea or is surfing the web for wedding stuff. At this point in time... we are about to make our wedding invitations. I'm trying to go the cheap route and am lucky enough to have a friend that majored in graphic design and has basically come up with the whole invitation on her own. She's really into making invitations, so thanks to her help they're going to be super classy. But it's going to take a lot of work. Not only are we making them but my mom decided to get all crazy on me. She decided that she wants us to hand write every single stinkin address. Ummmmmm seriously? I was thinkin more like... let's print them. Who really looks at the envelope? I don't. But you know.. I'm not the only person in the world and evidently people like my mom do look at that kind of stuff.. she says it's more personable and blah blah blah. The other thing I didn't care about was the stamp. Yes. The stamp. She wants to make personalized stamps with my cake on it. So all of you out there, make sure you admire my envelope and spend at least 10 minutes admiring it. All for the sake of my mother. This battle is not worth fighting. :)

I am soooooooooo excited for summer. My little brother is graduating in June and I just feel like so many changes are happening! Crazy to think I'm going to be a married old lady in just a few months! I cannot wait! My roomate Holly and mines apartment lease is up in 20ish days and then I'll be moving home for 2 months! They really just can't get rid of me. ;) I wasn't planning on this but as it turns out... it would have been silly for me to try and find a place so close to getting married.. and I didn't really want to pay for the place we will be living in so soon because well... that's just too much money that I don't have. But it will be nice to save a couple months worth of rent, and living with the rents isn't all that bad.

A big thing that has been taking up my time has been the gym! I've always loved working out but when i knew this wedding was coming up a fire really got put under my butt! My eating habbits needed to change. So since Christmas I have lost 31 pounds and still going! I plan to keep losing till I'm exactly where I want to be. My fiance Bobby is a big... healthy crazy work out guy. A couple of years ago Bobby was a preettttyyy big boy and since he made some big life changes he got himself on a track to a healthier life. All together he has lost 60 pounds and is still losing. He's been studying about nutrition and what's important and different eating habbits for the past couple of years. Though the past 9 months he's really gotten serious about it. I have never in my life seen anyone as motivated as this guy. When he wants something he really puts his mind to it. It is so amazing. More will-power than anyone. Anyway, through him I've been able to learn a lot about how I should be eating. A lot of people go on different diets and that works for them. But I really wanted to lose the weight I wanted to lose and keep it off. And I've seen too many times where someone goes on something like Nutrisystem (no offense to anyone who's done it or is on it!) and they gain at least half if not all of it back. You aren't learning anything about why certain things are bad for you or how just cutting out fat or carbs completely isn't necessarily the best option. Reducing meal sizes, eating more often, eating a good breakfast, lots of protein, not eating late or out too much, not cutting things completely out of your diet and allowing yourself to splurge once a week are a lot of the things people miss. I never knew some of these things or better yet WHY they were important. What I learned is so much of it comes down to calorie intake. Just because I'm eating a salad doesn't mean it's not 1500 calories! Let me tell you... that cheese and bacon bits and fried chicken strips and dressing DO ADD UP! I never knew these things!! This is what they should be teaching in health class starting at an early age. It's not just about being skinny it's about being healthy. I would so much rather be an average size and healthy and active then super super tiny where I starve myself and am hurting my body.

Anyway, I'd like to be 9 pounds lighter before the wedding! Then I'll have another 20ish to go after that. I really hope that I can remember all of those things and teach my kids about nutrition and why it's important. Thankfully I'm marrying a great cook who eats really well and we are great motivators for each other!

Other than all of that I'm just trying to do as many fun things on the side as possible! In the few weeks we have gotten some WONDERFUL sunshine! A couple of the weekends we took night trips to the beach with friends just to have bonfires. Ohhh I am so excited for summer! I just want to be outside and hiking and playing as much as possible! I can not wait.

Here's a few pictures from a few weeks ago when we took a little trip to the beach.